Friends give me same comment "you are the most optimistic person I ever know".
"Yeap, most time I am, but sometimes I also feel blue as you."
Friends have similar response to me " You must be kidding! If you felt blue, others on this earth would all commit suicide."

Through a rough month, money and power talk. I get to be flexible to everything. With all frustrations, I just felt motivation, effectiveness and energy drained at the end of last week.

Last night, I had a conversation with mom, my best and most entrusted friend. Mom said "I thought you were always very happy with your life in the past……"

Maybe I am a supporter and fighter of life. Maybe I never learn and know to how to express real feelings in front of others. None believes it except my cozy teddy bears. Sad for me? !

Well, I am whining, please allow me, at least this moment. I want to do nothing rather welcome a big break in life. The road of life can be so many things at so many different times. One year I’m on a smooth straightway, zipping through without a care in the world. The next year, I find myself at a crossroads, wondering which road to go on. All I do is climbing up a steep slope wondering if I’ll ever make it to the top, only to find that the top is full of nothing but bumps and potholes.

Words from confidant warm my heart:

I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.
I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirits up.
I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger.
I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.
I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.
I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final Goodbye.