对我

**青生涯的追忆,源于大牛同学(不朽之王)在走廊出现。


我知道大家都不太喜欢他,觉得他言行过激,思想怪诞。可我从一开始看到他的文章就感觉十分亲切,仿佛看到了多年前的自己。


**青是愤怒青年一词的简称,对其来源出处没有认真考证过,直觉应该是网络文化的产物。我对**青的定义的理解是“对现实、对社会、对自身存在状况不满,并需要某种渠道发泄的一类人”

**青应该是古今中外一直都存在的:古时的竹林七贤;近代的鲁迅、李敖加上王朔。欧洲的如XXX,美国一批RAPPER都可以算是典型的**青,其代表人物是EMINUM**青的行为特点是只要看到不喜欢的就评论、批评、讽刺、以至谩骂。

**青也是分等级的:骂出名堂、骂出水平并能引起共鸣的自然是一流**青,这里面有因**青而成名的如鲁迅、李敖,也有成名后才“愤”的如王朔。


而象底特律的白人小伙



网络上更是

**青辈出,象城里的金书龙,不朽之王,大理杨二,庄冬等等,另外象*轮*子、思凡一类应该擦边算“软性**青”


我注意到金书龙的

**青现象具有周期性,他没过一阵就会逮着点什么看不顺眼的撰文评判一通。虽然他的文章杀伤力较大,但他从不东一贴西一贴的跟在别人后面批评讽刺。而不朽之王愤则愤已,对批评基本不予回应。杨二、庄冬则既写文章也跟贴批评、讽刺。


站在一个高的视角来看

**青现象绝对是有价值的,天安门事件,64事件本质上都是**青现象的产物。**青现象从正面或侧面推动着社会,改变着社会


回到我的

**青生涯, 我知道,听上去可能有点邪门。


12-16岁期间对人生及其悲观,对家庭,对感情,以至对我周围的社会非常不满,岂止是不满,简直就是痛恨。碰巧弄到了不少宣传个人主义英雄主义的书。按理说那些书是女孩子根本不该看的。可我一则天生野性,二来看书从来是饥不择食不管不顾的,所以根本不管那一套。我这些书看了之后很有些中邪的味道,其中对我影响很大的是<<第三帝国的兴旺>>和一本<<希特勒传>>,人在青春期时很容易走火入魔,当时心中的想法现在看来的确相当可怕,所以不说也罢。


所以我第一次看到不朽之王的博克时及其震撼,脑子里“嗡”的一声。深埋已久的感觉象过电一样一下子都回来了,仿佛看到了多年前的自己。感到浑身的血液都流的快了不少。



当年的环境比较受压抑,思想不能象现在这样自由表达,现在想来或许是好事,否则不知会有什么样的后果。比如成了反革命什么的。



我的

**青意识从没真正地得到完善的发展与表达,这么多年过去了,他们隐藏在我心中的某个角落,变成了一种别的东西。只是当我看到**青们时,我仍然能感受他们的愤怒,我知道荷尔蒙在他们体内到处流窜,我也理解他们不需要什么原因,就是看什么都不顺眼。。。我称之为“体验性理解”。


如同段誉修习“六脉神剑”的过程,有些

**青能有计划有控制的发泄愤怒,而其它**青朋友们则象早期的段誉,东一指,西一剑,时有时无,空有一腔愤怒的热血,不知何处发泄。

祝我亲爱的

 

Song: Lose Yourself

Artist: Eminem

Album: 8 Mile Soundtrack *

* only the first single is being published before the release date

[Intro]
Look.. if you had.. one shot, or one opportunity
To seize everything you ever wanted.. in one moment
Would you capture it.. or just let it slip? Yo..

[Verse 1]
His palms are sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy
There’s vomit on his sweater already, mom’s spaghetti
He’s nervous, but on the surface he looks calm and ready
to drops bombs, but he keeps on forgetting
what he wrote down, the whole crowd goes so loud
He opens his mouth but the words won’t come out
He’s chokin, how? Everybody’s jokin now
The clock’s run out, time’s up, over - BLAOW!
Snap back to reality, OHH - there goes gravity
OHH - there goes Rabbit, he choked
He’s so mad, but he won’t
Give up that easy nope, he won’t have it
He knows, his whole back’s to these ropes
It don’t matter, he’s dope
He knows that, but he’s broke
He’s so sad that he knows
when he goes back to this mobile home, that’s when it’s
back to the lab again, yo, this whole rap shit
He better go capture this moment and hope it don’t pass him

[Chorus]
You better - lose yourself in the music, the moment
You own it, you better never let it go (go)
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime
You better - lose yourself in the music, the moment
You own it, you better never let it go (go)
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime
You better..

[Verse 2]
Soul’s escaping, through this hole that is gaping
This world is mine for the taking
Make me king, as we move toward a, new world order
A normal life is boring; but superstardom’s
close to post-mortem, it only grows harder
Homie grows hotter, he blows it’s all over
These hoes is all on him, coast to coast shows
He’s known as the Globetrotter
Lonely roads, God only knows
He’s grown farther from home, he’s no father
He goes home and barely knows his own daughter
But hold your nose cause here goes the cold water
These hoes don’t want him no mo’, he’s cold product
They moved on to the next schmoe who flows
He nose-dove and sold nada, and so the soap opera
is told, it unfolds, I suppose it’s old partner
But the beat goes on da-da-dum da-dum da-dah

[Chorus]

[Verse 3]
No more games, I’ma change what you call rage
Tear this motherfuckin roof off like two dogs caged
I was playin in the beginning, the mood all changed
I’ve been chewed up and spit out and booed off stage
But I kept rhymin and stepped right in the next cypher
Best believe somebody’s payin the pied piper
All the pain inside amplified by the
fact that I can’t get by with my nine to
five and I can’t provide the right type of
life for my family, cause man, these God damn
food stamps don’t buy diapers, and there’s no movie
There’s no Mekhi Phifer, this is my life
And these times are so hard, and it’s gettin even harder
Tryin to feed and water my seed plus, teeter-totter
Caught up between bein a father and a primadonna
Baby momma drama screamin on her too much for me to wanna
stay in one spot, another day of monotony
has gotten me to the point, I’m like a snail I’ve got
to formulate a plot, or end up in jail or shot
Success is my only motherfuckin option, failure’s not
Mom I love you but this trailer’s got to go
I cannot grow old in Salem’s Lot
So here I go it’s my shot, feet fail me not
This may be the only opportunity that I got

[Chorus]

[Outro]
You can do anything you set your mind to, man

**青朋友们认真练功,以便能早日宣泄掉你们的愤怒,写文章的确是一种很好的发泄途径:)))

Eminem是把**青精神化为艺术,进而走入主流音乐殿堂,出CD,演电影。不但扬名立万,还赚了大把的银子。